SIGH

I really really really really truly want to turn back time. I am so hype with stress. All the studying is driving me insane. I am deeply upset with my results at the current moment.And i just had my session with Dr tan again. Pill popper, here i go again. Sigh


I dreamt about him last night, And i woke up feeling so super happy and to realise that its all a dream. argh. Like hello? how many years already? Why am i still so stupidly pondering over this hopeless case? Argh. stupid dream.


Study la heat. argh. i hate myself. sigh.


oh great, i just saw him on fb. absolutely happy and in love. purfect.


*BITCH SLAP MYSELF*


All hail the biggest loser in the world: me.
I tell myself i need to make some dramatic changes to my life right after 1st march. My last paper. Like hello? that will mark 13 days to my big 20. ARGH. i feel more like shit already. Will be jobless and poor and disgusted. More day dreaming to go. sigh.


I think i need a __


OMG. wtf. sigh. *stuff fist into mouth*