Out of the many words that was said and exchanged, the ones that hit me most was the saying where people not telling me about their issues with me isnt because they respect/understand me, but just simply they dun wan to ruin the r/s with me. If thats true, i dont think i need these people in my life at all. Why go through such trouble pretending to like me? I am who i am, and i will always be who i am.

I am responsible for myself, my health and above all, my actions. I dun seek understanding from you because i know you misjudged me as a person. All i asked is that you respect who i am. I listen, i appreciated, i noted, but that was all i could give. I felt the strong criticisim on my lifestyle and strangely, i see no wrong in it.

Personally, i dislike judging people. Pretty, ugly, nice, bitchy. Because i believe that everyone is who they are. Even a boyfriend for example, girls made the biggest mistake of trying to change the person of who they love into their ideal partner. But seriously, it just doesnt work that way. Embrace your partner, family, friends, foes for who they are. The whole world does not revolve around just one person, it takes two to clap and a whole to blend. Isnt that why opposite attracts?

I had a realisation this afternoon. I had a really great mother.
I shared my every single wrong doings with her. Smoke,drink,party,boys.
Everyone's young once, everyone's had their phrase, why try so hard to change when it will all be better if you could just embrace?

Bitchy or not, nice or not, kind or not, i still love u no matter. Just that, i have to let you understand that..
I am me.
Sigh.